"Still, it takes time for people to give themselves permission to think in a racially conscious way. Even I am still not 100 percent comfortable doing so" - This is because each of us has been badly conditioned and propagandized since we were little children. The slightest vestige of racial feelings and solidarity for our own kind has been incrementally rooted from us over our lifetimes. In many ways it's no different than the sort of brainwashing and indoctrination that a cult member goes through.